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Chapter 56 Struggle
It wasn't until Jiang Xingni flipped to the second page that the number of argumentative replies gradually decreased, while the number of well-reasoned, evidence-based, and visually compelling arguments increased.
184L: To be honest, I really think Xingxing and Xiaoxiao are a perfect match. Seriously, don't you guys think it's beautiful to see two girls relying on each other in a group of male main characters?
185L: Yes, yes. Regarding the latest update of the Ghost Realm storyline, do you guys really think that if the person beside Song Juexiao wasn't Xingxing, but just any random male character from the main group, would Xiaoxiao have so easily let down his guard? Impossible! Absolutely impossible!
186L: ? Isn't it just because Jiang Xingni happened to be there? Logically and emotionally, shouldn't Song Juexiao trust Pei Zhaoye and the others more? Whether it's based on time or anything else, shouldn't their relationship with Song Juexiao be deeper than Jiang Xingni's?
187L: But all three of them are guys, right? I think I know what 185L is trying to say!! It's that analysis post from before! Song Juexiao definitely trusts Xiao Jiming and the others, after all, they've been through a dungeon together and are practically friends who've been through life and death together, but that doesn't mean Song Juexiao can tell them everything, right?
188L: ? Seriously, these fans are just adding to their idol's glory again. With so little screen time, what kind of relationship could Jiang Xingni possibly have developed with the main characters? She's purely a product of the author's over-promotion, and you guys are praising her for it? How amusing. Besides Jiang Xingni, who else in Song Juexiao's memories would be more logical than her? Even Lin Hongguang would be more logical than Jiang Xingni, right?
189L: ? ? ? I'm laughing so hard, Lin Hongguang! Lin Hongguang: Huh? Me?
190L: But they're all guys! I don't know if 188L is a Song Juexiao fan, but if so, I can only feel sorry for Song Juexiao having a fan like you. Seriously, the analysis post has been out for a while now. Whose fault is it if you're blind and don't want to read it? In case anyone hasn't read the analysis post, here it is: [Li Tao] Why is the bystander in Song Juexiao's memory Jiang Xingni instead of someone else? Is this the author and screenwriter trying to push the Xiao-Ni CP (Song Juexiao and Jiang Xingni) pairing?
191L: The analysis post has already explained it in detail. Those who want to know more can check it out themselves. By the way, I recommend everyone to ship our Xiao Ni CP... Amidst a sea of popular BL content, they've carved out their own niche www. Please, please take a look at my CP, they're really delicious together...
Jiang Xingni ignored the CP-shipping comments that followed and clicked directly into the post that was pointing her to.
No wonder she didn't see the post the moment she clicked into the forum—it was a week ago, a post from a real-world time ago—although it still had a lot of popularity, it wouldn't have been pushed to the homepage the moment Jiang Xingni clicked into the forum.
[Li Tao] Why is Jiang Xingni the bystander in Song Juexiao's memory instead of someone else? Is this the author and screenwriter trying to promote the Xiao-Ni couple?
0L: As the title says, no arguing!
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The first long string of comments was still arguing. Jiang Xing glanced at it and skipped over any obviously provocative remarks until he found a text reply that filled the entire screen of his phone.
Jiang Xingni finally slowed down his browsing speed and carefully read the replies.
78L:
I reread the newly released chapters of the comic several times. To be honest, when it first came out, I was also thinking about this question: why Jiang Xingni? Although Jiang Xingni's personality is really well-developed, and after only a few chapters, everyone is basically certain that she will join the main group, but Song Juexiao clearly has someone closer to him, so why is it Jiang Xingni?
So I went through it several times, and in my personal opinion, the most likely reasons are gender and personality.
It's not that Xiao Jiming and the others, being men, can't understand Song Juexiao! As everyone knows, there's a huge difference between fictional characters and real people!
But looking at all the signs and clues surrounding Song Juexiao throughout the story, I now feel that it really has to be Jiang Xingni. No one is more suitable for Song Juexiao than Jiang Xingni, and no one is more suitable to stop for her at this time!
First of all, we all know that Song Juexiao's unresolved issue has always been her brother. Her family is not the typical, serious type of family that favors sons over daughters—at least compared to some extreme real-life examples of families that keep having children in order to have a son. Song Juexiao's family situation is actually not bad.
Of course, I'm not trying to defend them! I'm simply explaining my own perspective!
Song Juexiao was born with an older brother, which shows that her parents loved her in essence—if it were simply a matter of favoring sons over daughters, they wouldn't have had Song Juexiao after having her brother.
The fact that Song Juexiao was able to be born shows that although the Song family favored sons over daughters, the degree of favoritism was limited.
That sounds like a pretty good sentence, but let me rephrase it.
Although the Song family loved Song Juexiao, the degree was limited and could not compare to the extent to which they were brainwashed by their preference for sons over daughters.
This can also be seen from some small details, such as neglecting the younger Song Juexiao because her brother ran away, and calling out Song Jueyun's name when her grandmother was dying.
Song Juexiao grew up in such an environment. She knew that her parents loved her brother and that her family loved her brother far more than they loved her, but she still wanted her parents' love.
Therefore, all her actions stemmed from the goal of "receiving love".
Honestly, Song Juexiao's backstory is a complete mess. The people from the past are either dead or insane. Even the current Song Juexiao's obsession with "love" is not as strong as it was in his memories.
Because most people are gradually letting go and learning to let go, the whole story seems like a mess. Even if they let go and are at peace, some questions will never have a definite answer because of the death of the person involved.
Song Juexiao was in such a state.
Has she let go? No, she will never get the answer to the question she wants: whether her family loves her more than her long-dead brother, and whether her family still holds patriarchal views to this day. Song Juexiao doesn't know.
Has she not let go? ...After all, she is also a superhuman who has seen life and death many times. It's impossible that Song Juexiao is still thinking about that issue and unwilling to let go.
It's like a thorn stuck in my heart, causing a dull ache from time to time.
...I couldn't take it anymore, and as I was talking, Song Juexiao ended up talking about myself.
From an outsider's perspective, did Song Juexiao's grandmother not love her? No, she did. Her grandmother was simply struggling between loving her and the patriarchal mindset she had been raised with since childhood.